Wilco California Stars

I'm learning the song California Stars, which is my favorite as I start to take a liking to this new band. Im starting to think about, change the style of my band and not write our own music and start covering songs. So far, I met his girl, things are a little complicated right now, but we're both waiting for eachother right now, shes not really ready just yet. Hence; why we're waiting.
I'm starting to notice how increasingly wonderful nature is. And Just Life in general, Life isn't to be taken advantage of, because life can be over in seconds. And it usually isn't the persons choice to die. Summer also is making me wish i could buy a pool. But yeah its cool.
Peace.

I swear I had an axiety attack today.

I could've sworn i had an axiety attack today. I had no idea what to do, and no idea what i wanted to do. i was anticipating something i dont know when or what it was, but i couldn't stand it. It felt like i was living in a mental asylum for like 6 months and i'd finally cracked. I jsut wanted to rip my hair out it was so friggen annoying.

Yard work sucks.

I recently just finished 2-1/2 hours of yardwork, now im all cut up and bleeding a little. All the sticks i bundled u pwere enough to give a homeless person a nice cozy house. After my dad denies to help me because he cut up all the branches im am forced to bundle them up myself becausee my brother is at a friends. When I finally finish, my dad comes out and informs me i now have to drag each and every bundle to the curb, by myself. Oh, did i mention the branches are covered in f**king thorns? Anyway, today im going to find some stuff to sell at my garage sale, so i can pick up a few extra dolalrs befoer i go to guitar center get my guitar gigbag and amp. I already have a strap but there a few awesome straps there. Thansk to my uncle my 270$ guitar is only 171$ thanks to awesome discounts. I'm currently goin to the lake on the 14th, and its the first time ill go this entire summer, and probably the last time also. Today i also realized how comfortable sitting on my bed is, seeing as though its a fold out couch bed xD
More to come later see ya.

Jamming with Spence in a month or so.

Well Spencer is off to soem camp for a month so after he gets back we're going to jam in his dads studio, which is quite awesome. Hopefully hes not in a band xD. But going down to chicago to see this fuggin hilarious kid and hang with him is going to be awesome, i cant wait. But lucky for me since hes going to camp for a month ill have my awesome ESP guitar by then.

Looks like another vacationless summer for me.

Friggen economy is being a dick on my parents. I hope ill get to go somewhere, because i deffinetly want to, but i doubt we will. Everyone blames obama for the economy getting worse, i don't blame him because everything needs to get worse before it gets better.

Slurpees, my new least favorite thing next to soda

I hate carbonation, my brother is a liar, he told be slurpees have no carbonation. So i get mine take a sip and my throught starts burning (as it usually does when i drink carbonation, thus my reason for hating soda) And i take a few more because the carbonation isn't that bad. But then it turns out the idoits didn't put enough syrup in the mix so their's airpockets everywhere. I hate slurpees, soda is equally bad. this sucks so much.

Atheism "Nothing Beats Being Right"

Now I dont hate everybody thats not an atheist, but there are many peopel i hate because they attempt to force their religion on me, face it im not going to change. If you've ever read the bible there are so many things wrong, and that contradict eachother. Like this for example "if jesus died on the cross for our sins, people say the people that killed him went to hell, why he died for their sins, and the ones who say they killers went to heavan why, they killed a man and broek oen of the commandments which damns them to the confines of hell. Further more; how come people say they remember being born again or remember having a past life and nobody belives them, but yet this "jesus" guy can come back to life on a F***ing "cross (otherwise known as the letter t)" and everybody belives that and theres no proof that the guy even exists.
Today in school my dear friend John, Gave me ideas on how Chritianity is even more messed up.Well here we go. So far from what I know is that Pride is a sin, Greed is a sin, Depression is a sin, Anger is a sin, and sloth is a sin. So, basically if you feel lazy. Sinner! If you're unhappy. Sinner! If you feel Jelous or want something really bad. SINNER! If you're anger at something. SINNER! If you take pride in yourself. SINNER! So really, if you have emotions, sorry people, YOU'RE A SINNER. And what the hell is a sin anyway. Its just something you did wrong, okay. SO why dont you call it a mistake. I guess that wouldn't make people feel bad about themselves then.
Okay let me start off by saying, when born into a christian family, your parents, might make you be a christian.Now the one thing i dont get is, When you're born you suppoused to be a heavenly gift from god or, god loves you always, God loves you for who you are. Then why the hell does that all change when the child decides to become a homosexual. If hes gay it's "You're an abomination of god!" "God doesn't love you, you came out wrong." Like honestly?! and then Christians are sort of like Nazi's! Why?! Because if you tel la christian that you're not a christain then BAM! Suddenly they hate you and shun you because you do not believe in the teachings of god! And finally, who the hell even knows if god exist's!? Sure maybe some old book says it but im sorry can we see a few pictures? NO BECAUSE CAMERA's Weren't invented! So if all of you christians would stop bugging me "OMG, FAG! BE A CHRISTIAN OR YOUR GOING TO HELL!!"Which brings me to another topic! How do you know heaven and hell even exist. Like what, was there an earthquake and when the earth split somebody thought they saw people, and like a devil?! Another reason why christians can be considered nazis. THEY HAVE STARTED F***ING WARS OVER CHRISTIANITY! WARRSS!!!o right this guy named jesus christ exsisted at 0 bce or whatever it is who really cares and lived for 32 some'od years and died end of story. Then for some reason he came back to life and everyone believes it. However there are plently of other stories saying that people died and they came back to life and guess what. NO ONE BELIEVES IT. So why believe that mr.christ came back to life and and no one else. Well this is how i figure it. You grew up into this world with the idea that some higher power exsists. you grow up not really thinking to much about it , but yet you go to school, family events, and church sometimes and its engraved in your brains that he must exsist and have been resurrected. Now i was given a chance to think and my family nor really anyone tried to make me a certain religion.I was given a chance to think for my self and these old time religions didnt really find a way to make me believe or think that something higher than me exsisted. I thought for myself and found a way to live my life. I mean come on im suppose to belive beause some people wrote a book on a guy a long time ago and that him and god rule over me. ( BTW that sentence might be wrong about christianity or whatever, but dont correct me beause you know what i mean and if you do decide to correct me because you think your somehow funny YOUR NOT.)